Hoping for the best but expecting the worst.
 at 1:34:00 AM
10 month ago : I wanna go Ngee Ann Poly now : I dont even think I can even go to any polytechnics.10 month ago, would be school, stay at home and do revisions.
But things changed after the reunion that I had with some ex-primary schoolmates, everything changed. I do notice my change. Every night without fail, I would be heading down to cosy. Would spend hours down there. For the first few months, I did do some revisions but after awhile, I would come down empty handed with only one thing in mind, to meet the usuals.
And then, I started picking up smoking. No, I dont blame them for influencing me. In fact, im blaming myself because I get influenced really easy and by right, I should be strong and not follow what the others do.
Months past, and still, without fail, every night would be spent down at cosy and at that point of time, I am aware that I am sitting for my motherfuckin O's. I was a little concern about that but as times passes, the sense of urgency seems to fade. I no longer care about my studies and somehow or rather, I started to neglect my friends in school. And at some point of time I know they were mad at me for neglecting them and always put my other friends as first priority till a point where there was a slight argument between us and when that hit me, only god knows how dissapointed I was with myself. And now, I dont see myself in any of the post secondary institution.
The only thing I see is that ITE is coming my way. I know last minute revisions never come in handy but at least im doing something. If fail my O's, I would retake as a private candidate or would just live my life as an ite student.
Now that I am left with 5 papers, which I am glad I still think that I will land in ite. Okay fuck whatever I just said. I sounded so emo. In 10 days time, I WILL BE A FREE BITCH. Free as to do whatever I want. Yes whatever I want. No one's gonna stop me from doing anything. First things first, I'll have a to get a new hairstyle after O's. Shop for new outfits for graduation dinner. And get a job for goodness sake. Mum even told me to get a job and dont just sit at home and ask for money. I will do just that. And yes, to motherfuckin lose weight before the year ends, major.
xoxo,
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Strumming Some Heartstrings at 1:34:00 AM
10 month ago : I wanna go Ngee Ann Poly now : I dont even think I can even go to any polytechnics.10 month ago, would be school, stay at home and do revisions.
But things changed after the reunion that I had with some ex-primary schoolmates, everything changed. I do notice my change. Every night without fail, I would be heading down to cosy. Would spend hours down there. For the first few months, I did do some revisions but after awhile, I would come down empty handed with only one thing in mind, to meet the usuals.
And then, I started picking up smoking. No, I dont blame them for influencing me. In fact, im blaming myself because I get influenced really easy and by right, I should be strong and not follow what the others do.
Months past, and still, without fail, every night would be spent down at cosy and at that point of time, I am aware that I am sitting for my motherfuckin O's. I was a little concern about that but as times passes, the sense of urgency seems to fade. I no longer care about my studies and somehow or rather, I started to neglect my friends in school. And at some point of time I know they were mad at me for neglecting them and always put my other friends as first priority till a point where there was a slight argument between us and when that hit me, only god knows how dissapointed I was with myself. And now, I dont see myself in any of the post secondary institution.
The only thing I see is that ITE is coming my way. I know last minute revisions never come in handy but at least im doing something. If fail my O's, I would retake as a private candidate or would just live my life as an ite student.
Now that I am left with 5 papers, which I am glad I still think that I will land in ite. Okay fuck whatever I just said. I sounded so emo. In 10 days time, I WILL BE A FREE BITCH. Free as to do whatever I want. Yes whatever I want. No one's gonna stop me from doing anything. First things first, I'll have a to get a new hairstyle after O's. Shop for new outfits for graduation dinner. And get a job for goodness sake. Mum even told me to get a job and dont just sit at home and ask for money. I will do just that. And yes, to motherfuckin lose weight before the year ends, major.
xoxo,
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