HamsyarAfyk

2011-09-08T15:36:00.004+08:00

Major Zayn Malik obsession going on here.

I am so obsessed with Zayn Malik and of course, One Direction.

2011-04-30T03:54:00.002+08:00

K lets start by saying, I miss my fucking red hair alot. I swear to god Imma dye it red again once my hair is at a preferred length. That is a promise.

So school was okay. Have to admit that Im like looking forward to school every now and then. Well my classmates are actually kinda awesome. QL1104J. Its gunna be 2 awesome years with you guys. Yes I have new friends but that doesnt mean I'll put aside the old ones. Honestly speaking, they can never replace you guys.
Zee Suhaila Azlin Silah Jason Shukor Hakim Syafiq Nyna.
Never.

Heading to Costa Sands Resort @ downtown east for Chalet with Zee and her family. Will be back on Monday. yippppeeeeee~

2011-04-21T12:14:00.002+08:00

weeeeeee~ in class now. Schools great. Not exactly great but fine.

A very great news, im getting a laptop soon :)))))

2011-04-15T19:52:00.003+08:00

Its major late I know, but we went to celebrate Suhaila's birthday at barrage, our favourite hangout afterwhich we had dinner at makansutra @ glutons bay.

As you know, school started last monday and I swear to got the first day was terrible. I was with Acap the whole day. Classmates was bleahhh. Dreaded the second day but I made a point to actually to actually talk to someone new and BAM I talked to 3. Hidayat, Syabeel and Niz. They arent the typicals. They kindda cool. So, I have new cliques. So in school, I have a new bitching/dissing patner = Niz. k whatever. Then today, I talked to the other malays in the class. Well, have to say all are sociable. So now, kindda looking forward to school. Still adapting though.

And I miss SUHAILA alot :(

2011-03-08T15:56:00.003+08:00

K sorry for abandoning this site for quite a long time. Im on tumblr most of the time. So yeah. Anw, this guy up here is Shah. His name is Shaiful. He's a friend of a friend. Met him once before this. Which was last year. We all(my cliques and I) went Sentosa. Then this, bbq at East Coast. Great time. Great fun. Got pretty drunk but managed to get a grip of myself. So its been almost 3 weeks since I last saw him. Rindu? Boleh dikatakan jugaklah.

2011-01-17T06:53:00.000+08:00

my everything ♥

2010-12-08T18:52:00.001+08:00

so when I'm in the hills I hang with Kristin Cavallari
and when I'm in Miami I'm with Kourtney, Kim and Khloe
and when I'm in the A I'm with Ciara or it's Keri
I'm feeling like a Diva then I hit Marah Carey
I'm in the UK, I'ma see MIA

if I just wanna talk I'ma hit up Monique
if i need a bad bitch Angelina Jolie
Material Girls like Madonna
model for Donatella, aint nothing you can tell her cause she get the mozarella
she look just like Rihanna, she work with Wihelmina only rocking Galliano.
she might be Filipino, be sippin Pellegrino
be watching Al Pacino, she could probably sniff a kilo
anyway yo, hit up Grace Jones and tell her I said Strange
I'm out in Paris mothafucka with Beyonce

2010-12-05T12:21:00.002+08:00

layers

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.

Name: Amsyar Afiq
Birth Date: 22st August 1994
Current Location: home
Hair Color: dark burgundy
Righty/Lefty: Righty.

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: hatred
Your dream of the perfect date: by the beach, watching the sunset
Goals you’d like to achieve: being a somebody

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
Your thoughts first waking up: "dayuuuuuuuuuuuuum, gotta go to work soon."
Your best physical feature: dont think I have any.
Your bed time: anytime
Your most missed memory: my childhood mostly.

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald’s or Burger King: Mcdonalds.
Single or Group Dates: single
Adidas or Nike: nike.
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla.
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: uhuh
Drink: we do all drink.
Take showers: really?
Have a crush: everyone does
Like school: to a teany-weany extend, yes
Believe in yourself: somehow
Believe what goes around comes around: guess so?
Believe everything happens for a reason: yes
Think you’re a health freak: nah

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: uhuh
Been on stage: yeah
Eaten sushi: 2 dyas ago
Been hurt: all my life
Dyed your hair: just did

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: never
Kissed the same sex: was
Got beaten up: yea
Changed who you were to fit in:this is tough

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: dont see myself getting there
Number of kids you’re planning on having: not sure

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye colour: light blue
Hair colour: red
Short or long hair: long
Fat or fit: fit.
Looks or personality: both
Fun or serious: seriously funny.

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: tumblr-ing
1 HOUR AGO: still sleeping
1 WEEK AGO: rotting at home
1 YEAR AGO: Cameron Highlands

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I feel: stupid
I hate: hypocrites
I hide: emotion
I need: fortunes.
I love: my family and friends

LAYER 12: FAVORITES.
Singer: uhm, Gaga, Nicki MInaj, Rihanna, Katy Perry
Colour: Yellow, green, black and white and red
Food: cheesecake
Thing to do: things that I like to do, doh

LAYER 13: RANDOM.
How long have you known your best friend?: Have a few,,so which?
When’s the last time you kissed someone?: not sure.
What are you excited for?: countdown/2011
Do you have any saved texts on your phone?: alot.

2010-12-04T02:52:00.003+08:00

OMG I SWEAR TO GOD I LOVED TODAYS TRIP TO SENTOSA. ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH I ENJOYED MYSELF. IT REALLY SHOWS HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU GUYS. I AM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEXT OUTING. USS RIGHT? ANYWAY, MY LIST OF FRIENDS IS STILL GROWING AND TODAY I MET AND MADE FRIENDS WITH A NEW GUY NAMED SHA. THATS WHAT WE CALL HIM. YEAH, LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEXT :))))))))))))))))))))))))

2010-11-11T10:31:00.005+08:00

I AM GOING TO BE A FREE BITCH TOMORROW AFTER 3:30pm.

2010-11-07T00:38:00.003+08:00

no matter how many knifes we put in each others back, I know we'll have each others backs.

So, yesterday was spent at home watching movies. I've been watching old movies lately.
Old Lindsay Lohan movies when she was young and cute and pretty.
And also, I've watching Sabrina The Teenage Witch movies and also the series. Gosh all those brought back memories when I was little when they played it on channel 5 and I can never forget salems voice. Salem, the cat?

Tomorrow's plan : might be going Yio Chu Kang. Accompany them boys fishing. It'll be the first for me. I am soooooo going to bring sunblocks and my shades.

okay bye.

2010-11-05T15:04:00.008+08:00

'Love is so short and forgetting is so long'
Only art can turn pain into beauty.

So, I couldnt sleep last night and I was so bored so I went through the free movies website and chance upon a movie. I know its kinda weird when I say this because its a gay themed movie. Im seeing this with an open mind. There was nothing sexual about it, okay maybe a little but really, the film moved me.

It was about a nerdy guy Danny who had befriended a guy Carter, well a jock. The jock was a good swimmer and was in the school team. He had history of seizures and had a troubled past with his family's relationship after their parents divorce. So, one day Carter was made to stay at Danny's place as his dad had to go away for afew days for work as recently he just created trouble in school and his dad wouldnt want anything else to happen. Danny was a good artist. He can draw and paint really well. They became close but one day, Danny was told that they shall never be seen with each other in school cause carter was afraid of some guy named Henry. But as time passes, the students from the school started teasing Carter calling him a fag, homo and stuff. Then one day, Danny was beaten up by Henry and some others. He was badly hurt. Really. Then, Carter came over that night not knowing what had happened to him. Danny then told him what had happened and of course he was shaken up by the whole thing. Carter consoled him. They seemed very close and loving. And yeah, they made out.

Carter was constantly teased by Henry and students in school and he was stressed about his father's constant nags and he never onced gave him words of encouragement especially now that his swimming competition is drawing near. He was then addicted to drugs, weed. The competition day came. He's coach was expecting him to win but he got second. He was pissed with himself. And, he constantly took weed and smoke. Then, after getting his essay, which was given an F because he cheated ( Danny helped him out with his essay but of course they didnt admit) he was off the school team as they previously made a deal that he's grade should maintain or improve.

A day later, he had seizure in school and was brought to the hospital. By now, Carter didnt wanna see or even talk to Danny anymore. And this of course made Danny miserable and when he was asked to leave, Danny said " Henry never hurt me like you did". And I swear to god I cried while watching this. The next day in school, the news was heard through the intercom that Carter had died the morning and that anyone who knows him, should go and pay respect to him. And this part made me cry even more. I was like wiping my tears and sobbing. Danny was devastated but thought this was a joke and was raged with anger the he collapsed. He paid respect to him and at Carters house, he was reminded of their time together, the lighter that he used and more.

Then the scene changed to Danny, 10 years later. He had become a successful artist but he can never get over he's high school crush Danny as he still sees visions of him.

I cant believe I wrote this all by myself. I swear to god this film is good and to those who wanna watch should watch it with an open mind.

http://xtshare.com/toshare.php?Id=32914

There is something that I've to myself for so long that it is really taking its toll on me now. I dont know how long can I keep up with all of these.

2010-11-05T00:49:00.002+08:00

Being single and alone aint the same, at all. I dont mind being single but I know for sure I wont like it if I were to be alone. But for now, Im not worrying cause I got friends around me.

So, I woke late in the afternoon today and was stuck on the laptop till dusk watching movies. I watched Ramona and Beezus and The Devil wears Prada. Gosssssh how I love that movie. One day, I wanna get involve with the fashion industry, hopefully.

As usual, met the usuals down at the playground and I swear tonight was so warm. The heat was unbearable. So, most of the familiar faces were down. And yeah, stayed till after midnight. Listened to MJ12 and, it was a wrong decision that I made. Apart from the story that was shared, the boys really didnt help cause they were like teasing me and telling me that there's going to be something in the lift, at the staircase and stuff. I was literally trembling inside the lift reciting prayers and dashed out and freakin slammed the door after me. Im now safely at home.

What to do tomorrow? Miran asked if I wanna follow him to Ecp tmr. His family got picnic. Still contemplating.

I dont wanna be a bitch but everyone's talking about you and I hate it. I hate to hear all that.

2010-11-03T19:29:00.005+08:00

History is history

Get what I mean. Finally, no more Hitler, Stalin and whatever weird president names of some country. With that, I am left with only 2 papers. social studies and science paper 1.
I'll be a free bicth really soon.

Clarke Quay today with hakim, wan and zee. And yes, we applied and training starts monday. Dang im excited for it.

we're two psychopaths but we know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs, we'll have each other's back.

2010-11-02T01:34:00.003+08:00

10 month ago : I wanna go Ngee Ann Poly
now : I dont even think I can even go to any polytechnics.

10 month ago, would be school, stay at home and do revisions.
But things changed after the reunion that I had with some ex-primary schoolmates, everything changed. I do notice my change. Every night without fail, I would be heading down to cosy. Would spend hours down there. For the first few months, I did do some revisions but after awhile, I would come down empty handed with only one thing in mind, to meet the usuals.
And then, I started picking up smoking. No, I dont blame them for influencing me. In fact, im blaming myself because I get influenced really easy and by right, I should be strong and not follow what the others do.

Months past, and still, without fail, every night would be spent down at cosy and at that point of time, I am aware that I am sitting for my motherfuckin O's. I was a little concern about that but as times passes, the sense of urgency seems to fade. I no longer care about my studies and somehow or rather, I started to neglect my friends in school. And at some point of time I know they were mad at me for neglecting them and always put my other friends as first priority till a point where there was a slight argument between us and when that hit me, only god knows how dissapointed I was with myself. And now, I dont see myself in any of the post secondary institution.

The only thing I see is that ITE is coming my way. I know last minute revisions never come in handy but at least im doing something. If fail my O's, I would retake as a private candidate or would just live my life as an ite student.

Now that I am left with 5 papers, which I am glad I still think that I will land in ite. Okay fuck whatever I just said. I sounded so emo. In 10 days time, I WILL BE A FREE BITCH. Free as to do whatever I want. Yes whatever I want. No one's gonna stop me from doing anything. First things first, I'll have a to get a new hairstyle after O's. Shop for new outfits for graduation dinner. And get a job for goodness sake. Mum even told me to get a job and dont just sit at home and ask for money. I will do just that. And yes, to motherfuckin lose weight before the year ends, major.

2010-11-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

12 more days. Anticipating.

2010-10-29T18:16:00.002+08:00

6 papers down, 6 more to go.

Once 12 November is up, I AM A FREE BITCH.
Imma do something crazy/out of the world/unexpected after that.
And when it happens, nothing's gonna stop me and I mean nothing.

cause i dont wanna change a thing.

xoxo, bornthisway

2010-10-21T14:33:00.002+08:00

Oh yes, we finally graduated. Its finally here. Not 200 Not 100 its like less then a week.
3 days to be exact. I am so unprepared but imma do what I can for this few days. Last minute revisions. I know it wont be that much of a help. But at least im doing something.

damn I dont know what else to say. I guess I'll have a proper update soon.

xoxo, bornthisway.

2010-10-13T12:11:00.003+08:00

Finally, I can get to update this bloody site. Opportunities like this, doesnt come always.
I guess brother was in a rush that he forgot to switch off his laptop. So now, I get to use while I can. After so long, like finally. Im gonna watch all the episodes that I've missed and get to know what is happening around the world.

So, O's in 2 weeks and hell I aint ready for it. Especially y sciences and POA. ugh fml. By right, I should have already started with my revisions but obviously none of that is happening. I probably should stay at home and study every night instead of going down and spent my time down there. Its only for this while. Im hoping I can do it.

im done here. Be back when I can, as soon as possible.

xoxo, bornthisway.

2010-10-07T13:56:00.001+08:00

Δ Δ Δ ΔΔ Δ Δ ΔΔ Δ Δ ΔΔ Δ Δ ΔΔ Δ Δ ΔΔ Δ Δ Δ

Be back after O's. Not that Im going to study or something, but I'll be back.

2010-09-26T18:57:00.003+08:00

So, 22nd September was the day I went Raya with the Ginga's and some others.
Cant deny it was greaaaaaaaaaaaat. At first, I really felt out of place but after awhile when everyone started talking to me, the awkwardness kindda disappear. And the thing is, I was having a major headache and gastric that day that was why I kept quiet most of the time and chose to sit as far as possible from people for air. Went home at about 11.30. Didnt follow the others to the last house cause my head was alr spinning and I felt like fainting.

I've been using my phone to go online and stuff cause my brother switched off the guest account. This is probably the ever rare times I get to use cause I switch the account on without him knowing.

O levels in 4 weeks time. Im going to do what I possibly can which can secure me a place in erm somewhere.

And I've watched Lagenda Budak Setan. A very good movie. Go watch.

-xoxo, Born This Way.

2010-09-20T19:17:00.001+08:00

2010-09-14T14:58:00.003+08:00

OKAY FINE, I DO MISS MY BESTFRIEND.

2010-09-13T08:49:00.001+08:00

2010-09-10T02:52:00.002+08:00

finally, the much anticipated festival has finally arrive.

angan angan mahu puasa penuh tahun ini tidak tercapai/kesampaian kerana ada berberapa hari tidak berpuasa kerana terpengaruh dengan adalah setan setan yang masih terlepas. sungguhpun begitu, saya tidak boleh menyalahkan mereka kerana saya juga tidak sepatutnya senang terpengaruh dengan mereka. saya berjanji saya akan bayar balik hutang hutang saya itu.

saya ingin mengambil kesempatan ini untuk mengucapkan selama hari raya kepada semua umat islam yang menyambut Aidilfitri dan terutamanya, rakan-rakan disekolah :
Azlin Suhaila Silah Syafiq Shukor Farhan Hakim dan yll.
Juga, teman-teman yang selalu berada bersama saya setiap malam tanpa gagal
Zee Seha Miran Malik Min Faiz Faeez Hakim Yan dan juga Wan.
Saya ingin menghulur sepuluh jari memohon maaf atas segala kesilpan dan kesalahan yang telah saya lakukan kepada setiap seorang daripada kamu.
harap maaf dimana nama yang tidak tercatat diatas samaada sengaja ataupun tidak disengajakan.

so, where was I, hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Yes, I was the last to wake up. When I woke up, everyone was already busy doing whatever they were supposed to. I lazed around. Went out for awhile. Got home and slacked and did nothing. Basically, I didnt help out in anything this year. Yay me. Okay thats it. Need to get some sleep. Waking up in a couple of hours for Raya prayers.

2010-09-08T13:05:00.002+08:00

this is for you, bestfriend. Fuck you for saying you've changed.

finally, am in touch with real world after not able to go online for weeks. Okay maybe just a few days. I wonder whats life without the internet.

Went geylang last saturday with malek, seha and her parents. Took bus there. It took ages to reach our destination. Helped Seha with her baju raya since her mum said I was her fashion designer, not. Got what she wanted and we went our separate ways. I mean her parents went somewhere else. The three of us roamed around geylang. Wanted to meet zee since she was there with her parents but didnt get the chance to. Met Aidil, Min and Wan at TKC. Bused home. Cosy till 3 in the morning.

The next day, went to geylang again but this time round with my family. Didnt get anything there. I was damn pissed wit my mum cause she promised to get my contact lenses that day but when we passed by the shop, she just look away. waaaaaaah, siapa tak peng kan.

been staying home for the past days. Didnt feel like going out. its alr the 29th day of Ramadhan. Raya is like really really soon. I swear I cant wait.

I wonder if all the sincere effort in helping you all this while is appreciated cause all I see now is that you're becoming something you thought you wouldnt.

2010-09-01T23:35:00.001+08:00

stayed home the whole day today. Okay not really went cosy at night.
SPE2 starts tomorrow and Im not giving a single fuck about it.
FUCK SPE2. FUCK MY FUTURE

2010-08-31T23:29:00.003+08:00

firstly, I wanna cry because my current phone is currently in a bad condition. It cant be switched on. I am soooooooooooo mad. FML. I can no longer use touch screen, no longer use wifi through my phone.
FVUK FVUK FVUK
How sad can life be??

secondly, the Teachers Day Concert was AWESOMEXZ.
But there were some part which was not worth watching so me and Azlin snapped photos of us.
I mean alottt. and please Danial, upload it asapz.

After which, went back to wgps. It was totally a last minute one. I was so exasperated.
maklumlah, orang baru habis aces day
Waited outside wgps for hours and it was scorching hot. Finally, got in. Didnt get to meet any of our favourite teacher cause they already went home : ((

Chilled at cosy with some people. Then, playground with Miran Seha and Wan till about 6.
Went home, got change and headed to Seha's place. Breakfast there. I was forced to eat ALOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT.
Cosy with the usuals.
Home.
No school tmr.
Lepak anyone?
bye.

and
HAPPY SIXTEENTH SILAH. THANKS FER TOLERATING MY CRAPS ALL THIS WHILE

2010-08-30T23:34:00.003+08:00

FINALLY SEHA CAME TODAY! I MISS HER LIKE FUG!

brother switched off the guest account last 2 days cause he was mad at me for using his stuffs. But then, he can never, no one can ever stay mad at me for too long.

10 days to Raya. OMG I cant wait. Idk what to update. Will update again soon.
and to night was awesome.

2010-08-28T00:33:00.002+08:00

it's been quite awhile since I last went out with the awesome bunch. Indeed, it was great. Everything was perfect except for the weather. It was scorching hot. Break fast at a coffee shop in that area. Grandlink after that. Karaoke. It was the very first time, karaoke-ing with them. I screamed and shouted and now im losing my voice. Went home with the rest while suhaila, koi and nyna stayed. Headed to cosy and chilled till midnight before going back. I love today very much.

and Shukor, Happy Seventeenth.

2010-08-26T22:50:00.002+08:00

Got up at about 10 just now. Continued watching Step Up. I swear it is good. Damn good. Should go watch it again. Left home at about 12 for school. Had science practical. Was in the last shift. Physics was manageable but omg chemistry, I didnt know what I was doing. I was still at the first part of question 1 after 15 minutes. I was going nowhere. And the invigilators kept looking at me. I managed to complete a few questions for chemistry. The rest is history. Got home and was on the lappy watching Camp Rock 2. IT IS SO MUCH BETTER THEN THE FIRST ONE. The best part is that it only premieres on September 3rd in America and 5th, worldwide. But I got to watch it. Was at home the whole day. Went cosy at about 10 and got home at 10.30 didnt feel like staying too long. Am now at home searching for working links for Ramona and Beezus.

2010-08-25T20:43:00.004+08:00

Today, my mum found out that I've been puking out what I ate after every meal cause she noticed that I stayed in the toilet for quite awhile after eating. I almost punched my dad in the face. I swear I was so mad at him. Im getting very vulgur nowadays especially to my parents. I cant help it. I know I shouldnt be doing this but whaddaheck, they dont seem to know, they dont seem to understand what I am going through right now.

2010-08-24T15:58:00.002+08:00

Happy Sixteenth Malik.

It aint easy being the one in the midlle.

2010-08-22T23:15:00.001+08:00

2010-08-22T00:00:00.002+08:00

16. Abang Abang already ye.

and to those who gave me wishes via fb or through texts, I really aprreciate them :D

2010-08-20T13:38:00.004+08:00

I didnt get what I wanted, so I really hated yesterday.

Yesterday's trip to Johor was considered a waste of time cause I didnt get what I wanted and it suck, real bad. I know I cant always get what I want but does it always have to be that way. But on a happier note, I got new shoe and my baju raya already. And also, 2 days to my birthday.

2010-08-18T15:04:00.002+08:00

I am indeed dissapointed with my MT results. I know I am capable of doing better but I guess this is what I deserve cause there wasnt any preparation done before hand, So I guess I reap what I sow. B3 and only a pass for my oral. How great does that sound. I am still considering retaking the paper. Uhm, congratulations to those who got distinctions.

LEO - The Lion
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A Leo’s problem becomes everyone’s problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun.. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

4 days to go, I'm turning 16.

2010-08-17T19:45:00.003+08:00

I SWEAR I THOUGHT SEHA WAS MAD AT ME. BUT THEN AGAIN, SHE CAN NEVER STAY MAD AT ME FOR TOO LONG.

2010-08-16T20:02:00.004+08:00

I feel like screaming from the top of a building and right after that, jump down and just die. Forget about all the shits that is happening.

I woke up in the morning, thinking what am I going to do with my life cause I no longer see a myself anywhere in the near future as of right now, I really have lost interest in my studies, completely! and all the fucking shit that has been happening lately really got me thinking, is my presence in this world a mistake that god made??

2010-08-14T23:42:00.002+08:00

was on the phone with the usuals for the whole of yesterday night. Didnt get to sleep until after sahur but I dont mind. Furthermore, I wasnt sleepy. Woke up at 8, showered and changed and rushed to school. For the first time I attended chem lesson. I was lost most of the time but I did learn a few here and there. Got home at noon. There was nothing I could do so I decided to try something out and it turned out fine. I ripped my jeans. Oh, yes I did. I slept throughout the afternoon until it was time for buka cause there was nothing I felt like doing.

Ate Nasi lemak for buka that mum cooked. I only ate a lil portion cause I cant eat rice during the fasting season. Stopped eating after awhile. Watched the YOG on tv for awhile. Met Sis and ate her omgdelicious mac and cheese. I swear it is to-die-for. No one texted me tonight so I had no intention of meeting anyone. Saw the usuals down at cosy on my way back. Chilled with them for awhile before heading home. At least, meeting them made my day.

I wont leave them. I wont leave anyone. Im sorry if you're gonna hate me for doing this. I just cant.

2010-08-12T23:29:00.007+08:00

Second day of Ramadan, Alhamdulillah I managed to fast eventhough I wasnt feeling well. I ditched school yesterday cause I didnt feel like going. Slept till late afternoon and was on the phone with Seha and Miran till it was almost time for buka.

what I did for the whole of today : slept throughout the 4 free periods until it was recess time. Idk why but I just dont feel like studying, just yet. MT and English lesson. Got home as fast as I could so that I could lie down on my bed. Talked on the phone with Seha for awhile and slept till 5. Got up and went back to my room and slept till it was almost time for break-fast. Mum made pasta and spaghetti today. Ate quite a lot. More then what I had for the past 2 days. Went cosy after buka. Thought of going terawih, but heh, didnt feel like going. Instead, chilled at cosy like every other night. And I like tonight very much. Everyone seem so happy.

I wanna get my hair cut tomorrow. Should I go bald? Definitely not.

2010-08-11T17:22:00.007+08:00

Firstly, I threw up after eating in the morning. No, I didnt force it. Maybe my tummy aint accustomed to it yet cause I dont usually eat that early. Or maybe because my throat wasnt feeling that good. Secondly, I've been coughing the whole day in class to the point of tearing and out of breathe. My tummy started grumbling and it still is at this very point of time. Thirdly, I would like to thank my dad for spoiling the day. He made me shout vulgarities, major.
kau janganlah mencabar kesabaran aku time time puasa gini.

♥♥♥

2010-08-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was great. Had a real good time with them. Met new people. Watching the fireworks from marina's rooftop was a breathtaking experience. The fireworks was so close and of course the uber loud explosion too. After chilling for awhile, headed back to Jurong for supper. McDonald's. Slacked at the steps for awhile before going back. Got home at 1.30 and met seha and wan again at about 2. went to a playground near gekpoh. laughed our way past time and and lancauway pasal orang. bought something to eat and slacked at the playground near cosy. Went home at about 6 and woke up at 2 in the afternoon.

and gosh, fasting month. I seriously am not excited for it. Im not even looking forward to it.

2010-08-07T11:29:00.001+08:00

the national day celebration in school was a total bullshit. Its like coming to school for nothing. There wasnt any high point for the day. SEKOLAH SENGKEK BUTO. Other schools celebration was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay better.

August: Birthday's, Ramadhan, Prelims

tak sangka pulak selama kau tak ada ni, suasana di situ aman dan tenteram. Harap-harap ketiadaan kau ni buat selama-lamanya. AND IM MOTHERFUCKING SERIOUS!

2010-08-04T18:24:00.002+08:00

Got my new spectacles yesterday. I never thought the world was so beautiful. For the past week, I've been seeing blurs and been squinting my eyes but now I no longer need to do that cause I can see clearly. I really owe my life to Malik. Okay not really. But thanks to Malik, I no longer need to worry about making new ezlink cause I left it at busstop near his house and he was so kind to pass it back to me at cosy. tyty.

"apa kata malam ni, kita share all of our secrets. Kita berempat sahaja"

That was what we - me miran min zee did. We shared secrets. We talked till 12 before heading home.

2010-08-02T23:37:00.003+08:00

I was looking forward to see you guys just now but it wasnt like what I thought it would be. Why were you guys so different tonight?? I didnt know why, my mood changed drastically. I became really quiet. I didnt felt like talking to anyone. But someone's presence cheered me up.
I hate holding my feeling in, but I do it anyways; Then when I finally let them out I cry for a whole day. &At the end I just feel empty because I washed all my problems away.

2010-08-01T23:40:00.001+08:00

The two monkeys birthday are coming up really soon. What shall I get for them??

because I treasure my friendship, thats why Im like this.

2010-08-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

Dulu benci mati matian. Lepas tu berkawan, terus jadi rapat. Setelah itu, renggang seketika. Kini, kita dah jadi bestfriends - Zee

2010-07-31T20:21:00.001+08:00

2010-07-30T23:37:00.003+08:00

Been having late night conversations with Miran and Seha for the past week, without fail. Somehow, I look forward to it everynight.

Now that I know you hate me, I dont think I would do anything to change it.

2010-07-28T00:04:00.001+08:00

I DONT GIVE A FUCK TO WHAT PEOPLE SAY. NO WAIT I DO!

I regretted telling you. Seriously. Its making matters worst.

2010-07-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

I FEEL SO OUT OF PLACE NOW!

2010-07-24T02:47:00.000+08:00

“Sometimes you just need someone.
Someone to make you smile when you’re sad.
Someone to tell you you’re beautiful.
Someone to look forward to texting you everyday.
Someone to talk to you every night.
Someone to say, “I love you.”, and mean it.
Sometimes you just need someone.”

2010-07-23T01:26:00.001+08:00

Amsyar, if you're not going to do anything about your results and studies, you are not going to make it to Polytechnic.

2010-07-21T00:20:00.003+08:00

sometimes the ones that you just knew stay longer than the ones you've known for years - zee.

I tried but it was so hard. It cant possibly change in just a day right. Im still trying.

2010-07-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

This is miran, my close friend.

1 down, 2 to go. After settling the problem I had with Sheera, I have to think about the problem Im facing with Suhailah Azlin and silah and also Afif and Sis. I know I've changed and I've started smoking. Im determined to stop smoking now. I dont think its going to be hard cause I know Im not addicted to it. I promise I would make it up to you guys soon. I have to refrain myself from going out at night. This should really stop but its hard. It takes time. Honestly, I dont knnow what I am saying. But I really mend the make-it-up-to-you-guys part .

2010-07-18T16:28:00.002+08:00

17 July 2010 was the day when everything changed.
18 July marks the last day I'll ever step foot into cosy, for now.
I dont know why but I just feel like I have to. For my sake, for everyone's sake.
Im doing this so that I can focus more with my studies. Im taking my major exam this year but it seems like im losing interest with studies and school. That is why, I am trying to change things. I dont wanna fix things. I want it to stay like this. Its for the best, for me at least.

Nothing to look forward to everynight. No more jokes, fun and laughters. I will miss you guys alot Miran, Malik, Hakim, Min, Wan, Yan, Faiz.

2010-07-18T05:56:00.003+08:00

I dont know what to do. Im stuck.

I dont know why but I felt really guilty. I am so sorry Miran. I shouldnt have ask you to meet us.

2010-07-17T18:04:00.002+08:00

Cant deny the fact that I am really close with the new friends that I made this year. I do realise that I am drifting away from you guys after I know them people. And, NO, I'm not neglecting neither one one of you. I am so sorry that I've neglected you guys for so long. I know I've changed but this isnt influence, this is just me trying to find my own identity.

I will try and find a way to make it up to you guys, i promise.

2010-07-16T01:37:00.004+08:00

What is the one emotion that has everyone mystified? What is the one emotion that has started as many wars as it has ended? What emotion has had more plays, songs, and stories written about it than anything else? Love, that one emotion that makes enemies into friends and friends into enemies. Love comes in so many different levels, that it doesn't appear to be the same emotion at all, but it is. There is so much to love, that it will be hard to put into this simple essay. It can tear people apart and make us do irrational things to bringing together entire nations. What can this emotion not do? It's hard to tell, but there is a lot it can.

the people who never fail to make me smile and happy every night

2010-07-15T01:51:00.001+08:00

"I try and act like I am fine but I will never be right without you"

2010-07-12T19:52:00.002+08:00

My heart was taken by you, broken by you, and now it is in pieces because of you. and the hardest thing to do is watch the one I love, love someone else. I chose not to show anyone how I feel because it doesnt matter to anyone.

2010-07-11T19:43:00.005+08:00

the past that makes you cry will make you grow, the loneliness that makes you cry will make you strong. Do not regret your past. Do not forget your past. Past is just past. It will remain in you but it can not rule you as it is only memories.

2010-07-10T18:09:00.004+08:00

"friends for a change"

I have nothing against anyone of you, so there's no reason for me to hate.

2010-07-10T00:41:00.002+08:00

Sakura at Keat Hong with Afif and Sis. Celebrated Afif's belated birthday. Went karaoke afterwhich at Boonlay. Reach home at about 12.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, I miss my BFF's alot!!

2010-07-08T23:54:00.002+08:00

I've got no issues with you, so why should I hate you, right??

2010-07-08T00:33:00.002+08:00

Ditched school today. I didnt feel like going. Stayed at home the whole day.
Chilled at cosy with the usuals. And tonight was exceptionally funny because someone admitted that he walks like sotong.

I Love you guys alot because you people really made my day.

2010-07-07T01:46:00.004+08:00

- done by miran

Had a good laugh at cosy. They were all dancing to 'dangdut'. Miran tried so hard but he looked like some idiot. Stayed at cosy till 1am with Zee and syafiqah.

Be Strong Seha :D

2010-07-05T23:23:00.004+08:00

Outing with the best ones just was great. In fact, it was awesome. zee sheera seha asyraf, thanks for making this day possible. Love you guys. and get well soon seha :D

Got to meet bff's at cosy just now. Eventhough it was just for awhile, at least I got to meet them.
ye zee, aku mengaku aku rindu diorang and diorang bff aku, puas??

O level malay oral tomorrow. Im so not ready for it yet. Im not ready for anything.

2010-07-04T13:11:00.003+08:00

I ain't that little boy no more, not anymore and that's for sure.

you asked for it asshole.

I knew you were just kidding but I kindda took it seriously, Im so sorry.

2010-07-03T14:03:00.002+08:00

"bff's in white"

Went home straight after poa paper. Met up with Asyraf and Sheera at cosy and headed to jurong point. Malik and Hakim arrived shortly after. Walked around. Bought stuff's for nurziana at talismans. I really felt like crying after Malik humiliated me at interchange. Went back cosy, chilled till about 7 and met zee again at 8.

The usuals came but left earlier than usual. Then seha and sheera came. There was only me zee asyraf seha sheera and miran there. Bought 1.5 mineral water and played this game. We had to hold the water in our mouth and someone would make a joke or something in the effort of making us laugh and we'll bursting out and splashing the water when we laughed. I was holding the water in my mouth when someone said he isnt a joker. I burst out laughing and water splattered all over. Boy, you're such a joker. You made me laugh while reading your posts on tumblr. Left at 11:30. Wanted to ton since seha was sleeping over at sheera's but it was already 2am and there was only 3 of us. So, we dropped the idea.

Went to bed at 2:40 after watching the abbys. Woke up at 8. Ditched mendaki and accompanied them to gekpoh for breakfast afterwhich we chilled at cosy till 11:30. Now im home alone. Okay bye.

2010-06-30T20:12:00.005+08:00

I wrote these after doing chemistry paper, my 5 wishes for the moment.

1. -^^.
2. Richer then rich
3. mlwc murdered
4. Meet GAGA personally
5. Have everything that I want in the blink of my eye

Chemistry and History is like super duper easy. Not really. I didnt do the essay. Fuck that. Physics paper tomorrow. I dont give a shit. No seriously, I dont. All I know is that I'll be going home at 9:155 tomorrow. yessszzzah.

went Jurong Point with Ziana and Sheera. Met Hakim after that. We walked all over jurong point and we laughed and laughed and laughed. Went home at about 7. Cosy as usual. Seha came with Miran at about 9. Didnt expect her to come but still it was great. One advice, dont get too comfortable alright cause you're bound to get hurt. Trust me. Ziana went home at 1 cause she wants to watch Glee. So I stayed with the rest. It was so chaotic. Then everyone started leaving, so I went home too. I wanna ton on sunday since there'll be no school the next day. Sesiape, join?

wtf, I hate the new OM. Muke nak step mana peh garang. Muke makcik-makcik. She would stand outside the school gate every morning and everytime I walk pass her, she'll look at me up down.

I want each and everyone of these. So pretty and cool.

2010-06-30T00:11:00.003+08:00

gambar ini so the kental.

Math paper 2 was a killer too. I gave up with POA. Left one question blank. I did answered the rest but it was all rubbish. Finished it as fast as I could and slept for the rest of the time. Now i'm reading both chemistry and history. Eventhough I know it wont work, at least im doing something.

I wanna watch eclipse please. And yes nurziana, I miss them too. AWWWWWWWW

2010-06-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

I wanna be in glee club, but I cant sing. Oh well, I will just dance. But wait, I cant dance. Then I'll just watch.

Math paper was a killer. Everything seems familiar but I just cant solve it. Serve you right for not studying. Paper ended at 10. I was looking forward to go home because I could sleep but I was stuck outside my house for almost 2 hours. No one's home and I had no keys with me. I slept throughout the 2 hours. No comfortable bed. No soft mattress. Dad bought pasta and it was awesome. Slept all the way to 7.

Cosy at 8:15. Tried to do some last minute revision but nothing went in. Now I feel like killing myself.

I miss alot of people right now. I miss suhaila azlin silah. We didnt talk much in school. I miss seha. I miss the cosy people. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

2010-06-27T22:41:00.003+08:00

pardon my suckish hair. I had no choice but to spike it up because it'll look even uglier when its flat.

I only had 2 hours of sleep. Was woken up by ziana's text at 6:45. Trained to sembawang. It was already pouring in jurong. But its drizzling there. I dont know why but my arm starting itching. I scratched. And it became red. But the weather was still acceptable. Then, the sun came out. The weather changed drastically. It was scorching hot and I became restless. Not that im not being supportive, its just that I get agitated easily when I cant stand the heat. But I did survive the 5 hours there. Went back home with ziana since both of us were very tired and our legs were aching.

Had dinner with sis and then cosy. Tonight was bleaaaaaaah. Boring. Not many came. Too tired I guess. And Im soooooo not ready for school tomorrow. Theres like SPE1 math paper 1 tomorrow and Im freaking unprepared.

2010-06-27T01:39:00.002+08:00

Toy Story 3D at LOT1 with nurziana just now.
Cosy till 10. Then met asyraf again. Chilled till 12:30.
Gotta wake up as early as 6 tomorrow. Would be heading to Sembawang to watch the nike cup.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
what to wear????

2010-06-26T11:16:00.002+08:00

Malacca wasnt what i expected it to be. Most of them had started their new semester and are staying in a hostel. And my cute lil cousin wasnt there because she was having a high fever. So I did nothing there. Went home the next day. Bought a few bands and magazine. Reached cozy at about 11:30.

Was surprised to see Seha there. Its been awhile since I last saw her. Zee Hakim Asyraf Min Sheera Abg firr was there too. I stayed with them till midnight. Zee went off. I went home. Bathe, changed. Met them again. Shaifful and Yan was there too. After awhile, made a move to Wani's area which is near jwss. There was a few others there too. Chilled with them till 6. Played teka-teki with sheera abg firr wan seha and miran in the morning. Soon they all left. Leaving me sheera and abg firr behind. Walked back to cosy. I went home. Rest for awhile. Met them again at 8. The weather was freaking cold and i was wearing shorts. The wind was so strong that it blew the rain and got us all drenched even under shelter. Froze till 10. Went to ziana's place. Chilled there till 3 with sheera and abg firr. He even treated us to breakfast-nasi lemak. Went home. Bathe, changed. Met afif at interchange at 4. Trained to imm. Afif got his hair cut. Dinner at bagus. Bought sushi. Left at about 7:15. Bought 3 wristbands for only 5 bucks. Cosy till 11.

The night seem so different. Everyone seems to get along. And i'm freaking mad at malik for losing my rasta band. But he promised to get me a new one soon. Fair enough. Otw home, malik, again told me scary stuff. That shook me a lil bit. But nothing happened. Malik asked me to ton with them again but since there's not really anyone that talk to later, I declined.

Would be watching Toy Story 3 later. Still dont know what to wear. And prelim is on this coming monday and trust me I aint ready for it yet. Im not ready for anything.

2010-06-23T15:08:00.001+08:00

I am so gonna miss these people and some others.

See ya people tomorrow night. Okay bye.

2010-06-22T23:06:00.002+08:00

woke up at 8:20 by suhaila's call this morning. Bathe and got out and reached school at about 9. Luckily CKK wasnt in school today so the first hour was a free period. It was freezing cold there. I wore shorts and hell I was shaking. Did NE ssurvey after lesson. Went cosy for awhile. Spent the rest of the afternoon till 6 at ziana's place. Went cosy again at about 8. I was so happy because I got my black wristband back. Thanks miran and fuck you malik for not returning back my rasta wristband and he did something bizarre that shocked the hell out of me.

I'm following my mum tomorrow to malacca. Will be back on thursday. Just a short trip. I decided to tag along because I wanna see my cousins. I'll be going in the evening, so I wont be able to see you AWESOME people tomorrow. Dang. I cant get back my wristband *slaps forehead*. So I wont be attending thursday's class. Staying out late with them people on the 24th. Oh great. Bye.

2010-06-21T23:18:00.005+08:00

bridging was alright I guess. It was freezing cold in the class. I did brought my sweater along but someone had to use it so badly, so as a guy with _____' not ____' I borrowed it to her. Headed to cosy right after class. Went home and changed. After all that shit, went to koufu. Bought fried chicken. Ate at cosy. Chilled till 6. Then met Ziana again at 8:30. Sent sheera home at 10. And then went to gekpoh cc to watch soccer for awhile. This part is really funny. Amsyar watching soccer = NO NO NO NO. After half-time, went home. Sent Ziana home with Malik. After that Malik said something really scary but I wasnt affected at all. Serious. He said be careful, dont turn back cause you'll see something with long hair. Seriously Malik, I wasnt scared at all.
and I like people who likes Alejandro^^

I dont feel like going to school. I literally dragged my foot into the toilet this morning. I was late for school eventhough I took the cab there with Jieyi. Okay bye.

2010-06-21T01:09:00.001+08:00

school starts tomorrow. As much as I love the fact that im going back to school, I hate ironing my school uniform and waking up at 6 in the morning. Im missing alot of people right now ^^. okay bye.

2010-06-20T00:11:00.004+08:00

finally, everything is over. It went pretty well. Just that we had shortage of food. But I SURVIVED. Only a few stayed over. Went cycling with suhaila silah and danial. On our way back, we saw stray dogs. Made detours. Then at about 4, cycled to changi village to see trannys.
Yes, some were pretty but most of them are not. I think I slept for 2 hours. Woke up at 7:30. I did the cleaning up while the others laze around. They choose to mind their own business. Headed home at about 9. Reach home at 12. Slept till 8.

Met ziana at cosy at 8:30. We still went down eventhough we knew no one will be there cause they're at ECP. We still did because its like the only thing we do to occupy ourselves at night. Trust me, the night was so quiet and time passed extremely slow. Left at 10:15 after we screamed at the flying roach.

Its good to know that you have someone missing me. awwwwwwwww. I was asked of my whereabouts quite a number of time by the boonlay boys. Sungguh terharu. And im glad to hear that my wristband is still in good condition.

2010-06-18T00:48:00.003+08:00

woke up at noon today. Did some cleaning up. Didnt do the dishes. I purposely left that out because I dont like washing the dishes- I will only wash mine. Left the house at 3. Met sheera and ziana at cosy. There were a few others. Then we got bored so I played snap with ziana using poker cards. Ziana, not knowing what the game snap was, was fooled and cheated by me loads of time. Went home at about 5. Went down cosy at about 8. Chilled till 11 before going home. I was amazed by a magic trick that someone did just now. Asyraf followed me home. He took some of the chicken wings home.

Im so excited about tomorrow. Hopefully everything will go smoothly, as planned. Will be meeting asyraf at 10 at his house tomorrow. Then back to my house and then to the meeting point. Looks like I wont be able to join you guys at cosy tomorrow night. Awwwwwwwww.

I was so happy tonight. I dont know why. Okay bye.

2010-06-17T01:19:00.003+08:00

was suppose to meet them at 9:30 at cosy but I woke up at 9:51. I rushed to the toilet. Showered change and went out at 10:15. I was told to meet them straight at BLSS. So I walked in the rain, yes it was raining. Apparently the match was canceled due to the rain and because of something else. hang around at the void deck outside BLSS till about 12. Then walked with them to gekpo. They played CS while we had our lunch at macdonalds. Went back cosy. Chilled with them till 5. It was probably the best afternoon session with them. There was definitely lots of laughter. Rushed to pioneer mall. Met azlin danial hongrui and jason. Then, we shopped at giant. A WHOLE LOT OF DRAMA! the total bill was $128. After that, I brought home 8kg of frozen chicken wings, alone. Suhaila was only there to hold my phone. It was already 7 when I got home. After bathing,changing eating, went down to cosy. Chilled with the usuals. another WHOLE LOT OF DRAMA. Chilled till 11 before going home.

My mum will do the marinating since she dont allow my friends to come over and help marinate. So yeah. Tomorrow, help my mum clean the whole house and she will help me marinate the chicken. My mum told me, she can give me money only if I help her clean the house probably that includes doing the dishes and vacuuming the house. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
Sorry Malik, cant give you anything. I need the money :D

2010-06-16T01:16:00.002+08:00

I was so down tonight. Emotional breakdown. But thanks to Silah Azlin Jason Zee Sheera Asyraf for giving me another reason to live. A really good friend of mine told me to let everyone know the real situation I am in now and that if they really are my friends, they wont mind and they would understand. I promised myself not to keep anything from anyone.

I didnt go to school today because my mum didnt leave any money behind for me to pay for the class event eventhough I wrote her a note and texted her at 3am in the morning. Instead I met sheera. Went to Jurong Point with Wan. We wanted to search for Izmi's birthday present but ended up with nothing. Sheera treated us to Ice Cream and Sushi. Cosy till 5.
Went back cosy at about 8. Chilled till 11.

This month's phone bill is like $137. My mum was nagging/scolding/shouting at me the whole time I was in the room. We quarreled and more things happened after that. I wont want to elaborate any further. and yes, I do things without thinking.

Would be watching Gingaboys match at BLSS tomorrow with sheera and zee. And afterthat, shop for the bbq on friday with Azlin and Jason. Okay bye.

2010-06-15T02:03:00.002+08:00

West Coast with suhaila, silah, kelly and jason. How pathetic but it was fun. Flew kite. Ate. Chilled by the idkwhattheycallthat. Its by the sea. Yeah by the sea. Played some shitass game before leaving at about 8. Bused back home with kelly and jason. Cosy till about 11.

and yes, I've picked up smoking, again. Hate me all you want. For all I care.

2010-06-14T13:14:00.000+08:00

straightening my hair before going out.
West Coast Park with my cliques.

2010-06-13T23:09:00.003+08:00

Kampung Melayu with Sheera and Erka in the afternoon, nurziana bailed out last minute. Headed back Jurong at about 6. Chilled at cosy till about 11. Had a real good laugh there. West Coast tomorrow and I have to bring my kite along. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

2010-06-13T00:15:00.004+08:00

The whole day spent at home. Okay not really. It was nearly 8. I was already changing and getting ready to meet nurziana and the boonlay boys when she called me. She said she's going dinner with her family instead and wants me to come along. awwwwwwwwwwwww, terharu. Had to change to something more "dinner appropriate"-cant expect me to wear school shorts right. Met nurziana at about 8:30. Her father drove us to Jurong Point. Had dinner at Swensens. Afterwhich, we went to her grandma's place. Left at about 11:30. Watched Ghost Whisperer while we were there. Flipped through Cleo. Cabbed home. Terima Kasih Nurziana Bte Azman sekeluarga.

Would be accompanying sheera to Kampung Melayu with nurziana tomorrow. Watching Kuda Kepang. Gosh. I was so stressed out. I dont know what to wear. Maklumlah aku ni wardrobe tak seberapa. I was so stressed out thinking abouit it that I used my shampoo on body. How crazy is that. One more thing, if I'm staying overnight on the 18th at Changi, I would be the one bringing the tent and then what, travel all the way to East Coast carrying heavy equipments to Faeeh's pit the next day. OMG. tak sanggup

So, today was probably the first time we didnt go cosy. We've been going there all night for 2 months straight. Except when we went wildwildwet. okay bye.

2010-06-11T18:24:00.005+08:00

I'm not a gangster. I didnt change. I dont drink. Get that right.

the meeting in school today was idkwhattosay. Only seven turned up. Discussed the necessary. Went back at about 2. Went home, changed. Met Silah under my block and waited for suhaila. Headed to 7eleh. They bought their lunch. Sat at the playground. Waited for Azlin to come. Played badminton. Was on Azlin's team and of course, we won. Bubble Tea at gekpoh and then went home. Went down cosy at 7:30. Today was just different. Full of laughters. Moments. Chilled till 10. Walked Sheera home with Ziana.

Cant wait for the 14th, West Coast. 18th, not really looking forward to it. It might not even happen at all. 19th, east coast. Again. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Obviously you lived a very sad and dull life.

2010-06-09T18:29:00.002+08:00

wake up call from sheera at 9 in the morning. Went back to sleep till 9:20. Bathe. Changed. And went out. Met sheera and nurziana at 7eleh. Walk to the bus stop. Waited for asyraf and his team. Walked to boonlaysec. The weather was alright at first. Match started. Then, the sun came out. And the whether changed drastically. It was scorching hot. I didnt really see them play. I was busy fanning myself. And at about 12, sudden pour. Ran out of the field and under the shelter. Went to the toilet. Took lots of tissue. Waited for the rain to stop before going to cosy. Chilled at cosy till about 4. nurziana went off at about 2. Miran and Yan passed by. They were going somewhere for a real photoshoot. OMG. Jealous? DHUH! A real photoshoot. Izmi came. He did some revision. Then headed to gekpoh. Bought bubble tea and went home at about 5:30. Met nurziana at about 8. She went back at about 10 cause she wanted to watch Glee. Afer sending her home, I went back to cosy and went off at 10:30. At home, watched Glee, 90210 and Iron Chef. The reason I'm telling all this little details is because I have nothing to say and I'm killing time while waiting for Glee finale to load.

So, there'll be class bbq on the 18th, Insya'allah. So I'll be out on Monday with my cliques on Monday. West Coast. i want picnic and I wanna fly kite.
Nasib baik pergi west coast je. Tak perlu aku gunakan pisau.

My aunt asked my sister to go cycling tomorrow and she didnt ask me along(my aunt, not my sister). grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

okay, sumpah aku jealous. PHOTOSHOOT.

2010-06-09T02:14:00.008+08:00

Its finally June 9, Alejandro music video premiere. The whole thing is just brilliant,at first glance don’t make any sense — to the common eye. It’s not for the literal, that’s for sure.It’s fun in my opinion because that leaves it open to interpretation. While some may get offended by the imagery, others gawk at it in wonder and admiration. To each their own, that’s what makes it art — pop culture. Art is to be hated and loved.

I woke up today with 2 missed calls. Private number. I thought it was sheera. So I didnt bother calling her back. Then, just now, Asyraf called and said he got tickets to NDP. He said they called using private number. Dang. I dont think I will get any tickets this here. Why the hell did they call me at 9 in the morning. Woke up at 11. Met up with ziana under her void deck at about 12:45 and made our way to the library. Went to the magazine section. Took teenvogue and seventeen and proceeded to level 3. There wasnt any proper seats/tables for us. So found a spot beside the reading room. Read the magazines for awhile before doing our work. Izmi arrived. Did some maths equation, left the place at about 3:15. Walked to pioneer mall. Had lunch at Koufu. Took bus back to the library to meet Sis. The others went off. Stayed at the library till 7:30. Bused back home. I didnt really go home. I put my bag in the closet outside my house and met ziana under her void deck. Chilled at cosy till 10:30.

Would be watching soccer match tomorrow. Its either at the field near Jalan Bahar or BLSS. Gotta wake up as early as 9am tomorrow. How great.

and nurziana azman, stop crying will ya? I aint calling you a bitch for nothing.

2010-06-08T02:01:00.002+08:00

Room status: still in the way it was 2 month ago.

Was at home the whole day, as usual. Gosh, will this thing last the whole month? Rotting at home. Chilled at cosy with the usuals. Gosh. We were laughing our asses off after reading someones post. Eventhough i failed my English, i can still write proper sentences. Subject verb agreement, very wrong. bukan nak mengutuk tapi betul pe. Will be going to the library later wìth zee, izmi and maybe sheera. Now everythings clear to me. I would be going out on both dates. Ice skating on the 14th. And watching 2 movies on the 18th. manelah aku nak cekau duet. Fikir mak bapak aku cap duet pe. Kalau da terpaksa, kene guna taktik pisau^^. And mata aku tembel.

Kesian pulak aku tengok mamat ni.

2010-06-07T17:47:00.001+08:00

no more Mr nice guy.

2010-06-07T03:50:00.004+08:00

Met up with an old friend of mine just now. He looks very different now. We talked about lots of stuff. Stuffs not even my closest friends talk about. I remembered the last time we met was like 3 years ago. hmmmm. Went for a late lunch at mac before heading home. Chilled at cosy, as usual till 10. So, things have change now. Would be going out on the 18th instead. How great. Invitation to a birthday party. Should we go?

this is how messy my desk is right now.

2010-06-05T23:11:00.006+08:00

today was basically a stay home saturday. I was at home the whole day. I was mentally prepared for that. I wasnt really looking forward to the evening since I wont be going cosy cause nurziana's going out. You cant expect me to go down alone, right? It was only 7:45 and I became restless. I texted nurziana:

me: okay. bored.
nurziana: Im not going neneks place. Gdamn it. Cozy?
me: omg. Yes please.

So, we met at 8:15. Chilled till half past 10 before going back. So, I will be going out on the 14th with silah suhaila and azlin. Ice Skating and movie. How exciting. Really. Gosh I should really start my revisions. I see everyone doing revision. me? I dont know when im going to start.And I seriously need to cleen my room. Especially my desk. Its in a big mess. I will take a picture and post it here.

I need to buy contact lens and pucelle.

cousin uploaded our childhood photo's on fb. How cute. Told ya I was very slim and fair.

2010-06-05T12:05:00.006+08:00

was at sheera's place yesterday. Watched Shrek. Webcam-ed. Cooked maggi while webcam-ing. Watched telephone dance tutorial. Followed the tutorial. Waited for Izmi to come. He came, we ate. Played UNO after that. Rush home to change. Met them again at about 7.15, headed to Jurong Point. There was nothing. Went pasar malam. They bought cotton candy,keropok lekor. Cosy. was at cosy till 10.30

Sudah aku jangkakan. Mesti salah satu sakit hati.

Alejandro tried to Telephone me after our Bad Romance, but I told him he was a Monster and it left him Speechless. So he asked if I wanted to Dance In The Dark, and I said no, to show me his Teeth, and then we got back together and I was So Happy I Could Die.

2010-06-04T01:20:00.003+08:00

A picture tells a thousand word. So, dont just assume.

I've meeting Ziana every other night for the past 2 month, without fail. New circle of friends. NO, they are so not the army of nonsense you were referring to. These are the better ones.Yes, they smoke. They only smoke. Nothing more then that, for what I know.

Today was by far the sweatiest day ever. Seriously. I can use a whole packet of tissue just to wipe the sweat off my face. No kidding. I made a deal with nurziana azman. We reminded ourselves to atleast try to be nice to people and I think we managed to do it. Smiling isnt that hard afterall.

I cant think of anything else to say.

2010-06-01T23:17:00.004+08:00

Today's outing was so a last minute one. Walked from Peninsular to Bras Basah Complex and then to Bugis. Then back to Peninsular. Then back to Bugis. Then headed back to Jurong. Was with the boonlayians till 10. Headed home after that. Feeling very lethargic.

Kalau kita tidak mahu orang lain berbual buruk pasal diri kita, kita juga tidak boleh berbual buruk pasal diri mereka tetapi kalau nak bebual belakang tu, no hal. Jadi, saya berjanji tidak akan memperburukkan sesiapa lagi

awwwww, shuttup!

2010-06-01T02:49:00.005+08:00

Oh, finally. It is over. Both the surprise celebration and the paper. The paper was omgithinkicangetdistinction. But for paper 1, omg. I dont have any points to write on. Paper 2, was do-able. I completed everything 10 minutes before time, so I danced to telephone in my own world. To those who noticed I was moving in my seat, dont get me wrong. I'm just dancing. While doing paper 1, I kept thinking about Sheera's surprise celebration. I was worried that she wont be able to come. But whatever. She came. Everything went pretty well. The cake was kindda cute. The board of wishes was completed. I'm happy that she's happy and I dont know why, I wasnt myself tonight.

Okay, kesimpulannya, semua orang akan berubah. Kita tidak boleh melakukan apa-apa untuk menghalangnya daripada berlaku. Jadi buang yang keroh ambil yang jernih.

I dont give a fuck about what you did and what you've done cause that is your own fucking problem. But its my friend you're messing with and I dont like it. Uhuh.
Dua-dua desperate. Kita tengok siapa yang sakit hati nanti.

POYO POYO POYO, PUKIMAK AYAM!